A writer writes not because he is educated but because he is driven by the need to communicate.  Behind the need to communicate is the need to share.  Behind the need to share is the need to be understood.

~Leo Rosten

Mercury is in retrograde.  Since Mercury rules communication, thinking, perception and the ability to process and disseminate information, this means that all of that is thrown out of whack for the next few weeks.  Thank Goddess, because I thought I was going crazy.  I have lost all ability to communicate.  I would talk and trip over my words, or completely forget words all together.  I would type an email and lose all control of my fingers making it nearly impossible to type even the simplest word.  I would have a great topic to blog, and then be unable to put it into words.  I was even having trouble just free writing.  Then I learned about the retrograde and it all made sense.  I know there are those of you who do not feel the magnetic pull of the stars and planets, and you choose not to read anything into it and chalk all this up to coincidence.  That's fine.  But I bet the next time you stumble on your words or have trouble putting your thoughts into words, you'll think about it, if even for a split second. :wink:

I love to write, I always have.  So, when I lose this ability, for whatever reason, I get a little freaked.  This time though, after retyping an email for the 5th time, I decided to just go with it.  After all, maybe this is fate's way of telling me to find another creative outlet.  So, I started crocheting again.  I do it off and on as the mood strikes me.  This time I made the Teen Queen (I have got to find her another nick name) a really cute purse.  And because I wasn't focusing on writing (whether in my journal, on the net, or just because), I really took my time on the purse.  It turned out very cute.  I have also had this overwhelming urge to paint.  This usually means, I paint a room in the house, but this time, I actually want to buy a canvas and some oil paints and emulate Da Vinci, or Clyfford Still (a great abstract expressionist).  This is a new desire for me.  I have never picked up a paintbrush in my life, save for the water colors in kindergarten.

I have also decided to go back to counting my blessings and not my burdens.  I lost this attitude a while ago and I really hate dwelling on the negative, so in the spirit of positive thinking I have made a note of things I am grateful for today:

• Clean panties-- (kind of goes back to Cyberpal's blog a few days ago  :lol:)  usually commando I only have a few pairs for when I need them like today, I decided to wear a skirt and absolutely needed them


• Knee high boots--like I said, I decided to wear a skirt but I had not shaved my legs, so the knee high boots not only make me feel sexy, they serve a camouflage purpose as well


• Sleeping in--even though I told my love to wake me at 5:45, when the alarm went off I just could not get out of bed.  He let me sleep until 6:30


• The boss being late this morning--as long as he walks in 5 minutes after me, he never has to know that I slept in


• Midnight sex  :D